'Whoosah' says the starving artist

So in every actor's life there comes that "Oh no" moment when shit hits the fan. I would say I am at that point. Work is slim to scarce. I just dropped a lot of money on headshots and classes and will be tapped out after the first comes around with all the bills to pay. My agent hasn't returned any calls or emails for the past few days, which worries me because I hope she's okay and if she is okay then that will frustrate me because of the silent treatment.

I crave working on sets and yet cannot have what I most desire. I keep praying and have an eerie sense of calm every time I do, but my rational side is telling me "Hello! Wake up from La La land! Mayday mayday!"

So I decided to appease both sides: my spiritual (or whatever you want to call it) and the rational. I am looking for part time jobs, preferably on the weekend. I am stuck as to what to do exactly...I could always fall back on those lame techy phone jobs (I'm not hatin' I used to do that) or slip into the comfortable stereotype of an artsy server or maybe even do data entry or be a secretary/receptionist. I have no idea...I just want to work as little as possible and make the most money. Hah! Don't we all, right?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Starving_artist



I can't believe there is a wiki article on our clan.

On a lighter note, despite the economy and unemployment rates, I saw tons of job openings-involving all of the different array spectrum, so there is hope! I have 3 "interviews" tomorrow and my man and I just spoke about getting a job yesterday. Phew...I am not putting my eggs in the basket, but it gives me hope :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TEdPiuAR66I

Speaking of hope, so my boyfriend and I have started going to church together "digitally" at this really awesome, relaxed church environment called Calvary. When I mean digitally, I mean literally. They record live their sermons and all you do is stream it like a podcast, which is neat. Now I used to dislike the Calvary (opinion based from a former man of mine) without ever truly making an opinion of it myself. I just felt like it was a Walmart version of church. However, it really isn't. It's big, that's for sure, and it has a lot of activity-but isn't that what we would want from a Church? It accepts everyone willing to go and has a warm, welcoming environment. Which is a 180 degree difference from the old me because I was rather opposed to religion and the whole concept of churches.

Not that I'm trying to convert you, just telling you what's new in my life and I felt guilty for starting this blog off in a self pity downer sort of way. This year has definitely been so different already, but I feel good vibes! If you aren't feeling good vibes, than listen to this song...Beach Boys always clears the blues!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nC2gZMNkyJo