I am sitting in my family's living room on the large suede beige couch. That's right...you read correctly. Family. I am still in AZ and I don't regret it a bit. 1) I've hung out with the parents (regardless of what they think), got to hang out with my beau more, beat seven blizzards in NYC and just got amazing news today that I was cast in a movie being shot here. Not to mention that I've had another audition for a movie about a month ago, an audition for a short last week and another audition for a movie going to be shot in LA tomorrow. I think, my friends, that luck is on my side!
Granted...things haven't been entirely blissful. I've had many arguments with my family about "where I'm going". Also....not having a vehicle is, well, inhibiting to say the least. I have no form of income except when every now and then someone at my old job wants their shift covered. Shout out to Ajo Al's! I'm still paying my rent in NYC...which I'm not complaining about because it's my responsibility, no doubt. Just sucks to lose money every month and not have good use for it.
Enough with the Debbie Downer. You know...I'm kind of glad I haven't blogged for a bit because I most likely would have lamented about how confused I am and feel pressured by my family to either go back to NYC or quit the whole acting bit and go back to school for a "real" career. This morning I was going to blog that very thing, but got distracted with hanging with the parents, biking around the desert which happens to be my neighborhood and take pictures of random things around me, search for acting gigs and play a little bit of Sudoku.
About a month ago I had nose surgery to correct my deviated septum. After I made my decision to stay longer, the family thought why not take advantage of my insurance that I have for a few more months and their helping hands? So since January I've been seeing ENTs, decided on the one (who was FAB by the way- Dr. Samuel Bailey) and finally had the surgery. Results? Well...it comes and goes...the first two hours was sheer euphoria. I was able to breathe like I never thought possible. However, "swelling" occurred and still is a wee bit swollen (in the inside of course) and my breathing varies from decent to 'like it was pre-surgery'. The doc said the septum was still straight, so I'm happy with that. I know it'll get better...I mean I had the surgery a month ago...geez...I'm such a typical impatient patient. You'd think I'd behave better since I used to work in a hospital, but I'm only human.
Then during this time as well...with the whole family getting on my arse about figuring my life out...I've been looking into grad school. I have no desire to go to medical school anymore especially with the way the society has been changing (I won't get into the politics behind it all) and my parents think I'd make a great lawyer. I like law...do I love it? I don't think so. Will I be great at it? I hope so...I'll do my best at it. Will I be happy? I don't know...
I really have no idea what I want to do if acting doesn't work out. I really have no idea and that's a very frustrating feeling. I just want to be happy and I want to be successful enough to be able to provide for my future family.
For now, I'm figuring things out day by day and I'm pretty happy with the way things are going at the moment.
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